~ Would anyone care, would anyone cry

If I finally stepped off of this ledge tonight?

Would anything change, would you all be just fine?

'Cause I need a reason to not throw the fight

It just might save my life ~

nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how i reacted

... my new years resolution was to stop wondering if i'm good enough for other people and start wondering if they're good enough for me, but than again i remember all the people who hurt, betrayed, lied to me and left me behind. so i really don't want a single person in my life, i just can't handle the pain anymore...

I knew exactly how it was going to end, yet it still hurt. Because a part of me, even if small, wanted to belive that things might go different this time.

" Your trauma made you stronger "

NO, my trauma made me traumatized, it made me weak, gave me sleepless nights and memory loss, it gave me feelings I'v never wanted....